Dear windflower:
It's 2015. 14 years passed since the last time I saw you. I miss you, only in literal. I still hope I can see you again when we not got too old.a glance is enough, for I think I can not talk too much at that moment, silence will grow up, tears slipping down, then we departed again, for ever. I got white hair in the sides of head ( My mother first notice it, and she said: oh, my little boy is getting old, too). I am over weighted now.( when we meet, I am about 60 kg, now is about 80kg, its a nightmare. frankly speaking, there is nothing to seen or talk. It's doomed yet.
I am still a software designer, still a B-player. I go to XinJIang again in October. this time, the project manager of me, 15 year younger, shows remarkable advantage over me. He is more efficient, has very great personal relaionship with other people, and the skill of connection with customer which I am lack of them, all. I was feeling crushing down by him in IQ, EQ... Sometimes, like today, I think my work is just wasting time of mine and my colleges.
I considered the opportunity to entering another domain, but as I have already learned in physics and programing. the basic problem of mankind is all the same - The COMPLEXITY. It seems different from a far distance, but when you got closer. It changes, changs to be the same thing, boring, trivaling and meaningless. I don't think there have any reciption to B-Player, you can not handle in one place, you can not handle it in everywhere. for us, we must suffer it. it is the life itself. whatever you like or not, It is itslef. what you only to do is accept it, let him baking you, till you became a nervous, mizerable, wrinkled grandpapa. then you can die then.
the happiness seems so rare in daily life. I shows all my respection to the guys who deliver the skills of resistance, like musician, movie star, and the author of books. <the big bang theory>, do you have seen it? I love these guys, I thinks everyone of them, is a multimedia tearcher, to show you some pattern to temporary jump out the sea of blue. taking a little breath. these guys are all great fighter of human being.
so many times are wasted in these battles. the battles with emotions.
I think, the force of <star war> maybe just the other name of emotion. the Jedi focus the bright side of it, and Sith take the dark side of it. All the great work's basic topic is same - the emotion, the skill to handle it. r u a professional fighter, now?
you got 39 this year, and I got 40. I hope we can carefully deliver these experiences to our children and other people. this is the most important thing to do in my left lifetime.
It's 2015. 14 years passed since the last time I saw you. I miss you, only in literal. I still hope I can see you again when we not got too old.a glance is enough, for I think I can not talk too much at that moment, silence will grow up, tears slipping down, then we departed again, for ever. I got white hair in the sides of head ( My mother first notice it, and she said: oh, my little boy is getting old, too). I am over weighted now.( when we meet, I am about 60 kg, now is about 80kg, its a nightmare. frankly speaking, there is nothing to seen or talk. It's doomed yet.
I am still a software designer, still a B-player. I go to XinJIang again in October. this time, the project manager of me, 15 year younger, shows remarkable advantage over me. He is more efficient, has very great personal relaionship with other people, and the skill of connection with customer which I am lack of them, all. I was feeling crushing down by him in IQ, EQ... Sometimes, like today, I think my work is just wasting time of mine and my colleges.
I considered the opportunity to entering another domain, but as I have already learned in physics and programing. the basic problem of mankind is all the same - The COMPLEXITY. It seems different from a far distance, but when you got closer. It changes, changs to be the same thing, boring, trivaling and meaningless. I don't think there have any reciption to B-Player, you can not handle in one place, you can not handle it in everywhere. for us, we must suffer it. it is the life itself. whatever you like or not, It is itslef. what you only to do is accept it, let him baking you, till you became a nervous, mizerable, wrinkled grandpapa. then you can die then.
the happiness seems so rare in daily life. I shows all my respection to the guys who deliver the skills of resistance, like musician, movie star, and the author of books. <the big bang theory>, do you have seen it? I love these guys, I thinks everyone of them, is a multimedia tearcher, to show you some pattern to temporary jump out the sea of blue. taking a little breath. these guys are all great fighter of human being.
so many times are wasted in these battles. the battles with emotions.
I think, the force of <star war> maybe just the other name of emotion. the Jedi focus the bright side of it, and Sith take the dark side of it. All the great work's basic topic is same - the emotion, the skill to handle it. r u a professional fighter, now?
you got 39 this year, and I got 40. I hope we can carefully deliver these experiences to our children and other people. this is the most important thing to do in my left lifetime.
